Thursday, 20 March 2014


Well definitely replaced my food addiction with a Clothing addiction. Can't go shopping in a mall now without coming home with a new outfit. Also loving the op shops now that I can fit into a fair amount of the clothes. Also been going pretty hard with the exercise routine lately and was thinking last night (while I was having trouble getting to sleep) that I think I have replaced sex with exercise. My ex and I where pretty active, nearly daily. Then to go to nothing, needed to realise that energy somewhere. Been to the gym 4 times this week and did a body balance class (thinking it was going to be easy was a big mistake). Was even going to go today to the gym, but morning started off crap with a bad nights sleep,so went shopping instead.

Ok now for the weight loss update...... Still on a very frustrating stall. It goes up and down about 3kg since January. I haven't been recording it as its been to fickle. It ranges from 90.9 to 93.9, but the most constant weight the scales say is 91.9kg. It just doesn't want me to see the 80's (sad face).
Ok now just did my measurements, no weight loss on the scales over a month, but all the exercise must be paying off. In one moth have lost another cm of waist and tummy. The big surprise is my wings are still even shrinking 1cm off my left arm and 2cm off my right arm. Boobs are the same (can't afford to loose any more there lol) another cm off my wrists and ankles. But the question mark is my thighs are up a cm.But I'm guessing that's the muscle. Or incorrect measurement last month. But glad I just did that as for when the scales aren't moving the body is still reshaping. Also the fact is I now haven't had a period for over 5 weeks so wondering how much extra fluid I'm retaining.  No I'm not pregnant, already checked out that possibility and boy was I in a panic lol.
Still having some bad eating days and know I'm not eating enough fruit and veggies. But take my vitamins every day and have started to take a fibre vitamin now too, I feel it is working to a degree. My number 2's where all over the shop. But now they seem to be every second day and no bad constipation or diarrhoea (except after a night on the grog).
Go through bad chocolate days, they like come in waves.Might have a craving for a few days (in which I have been giving into) then can't stomach the stuff for about a week. I've switched over to diet cordial from normal cordial thinking that might be an issue (though I have had normal cordial all through my journey).
I've changed around my eating habits and times. But nothing wants to budge.
So I'm just going to stick with what I'm doing, though down the track I might do another pouch test and see if that shakes up my system at all.

Oh I posted this update on gastric sleeve site so thought I'd put it here too about loose skin:
Ok for those worried about excess skin. (Specially after watching the what goes wrong plastic surgery show on prime tonight) Specially after huge weight loss. My answer is EXERCISE while loosing. Going to put up my nearest to being nude lol and one taken a few weeks ago.
I have lost 86kg. I have 6kg more to go to my personal goal I am planning on a tummy tuck and thigh plastic surgery after I budge the last 6kg.
I am 44 for those wondering if age is a factor, I also have had 5 kids, twins in that equation.
This is to give you an idea of loose skin (but we are all different) but I do belief I'm not as bad as I could be because I have exercised for a fair bit of my journey. (20 months out)

 First photo About June 2012 

Second Photo February 2014

Oh also posted this on my Facebook wall and Gastric sleeve site: For the last 3 years. My friends and I have gone out to lunch on Labor Day. Thought I'd do a comparison shot.

Ok always more things going through my crazy head. Want to actually sit down and type up my food and exercise for a whole week to check over what I'm doing wrong (pinching bits and pieces of food here and there doesn't help, specially when I think 'oh its only a tiny bit don't bother recording it' but it all adds up). Really need to budge this stall. 
About to have a night on the grog isn't going to help lol. Oh well at least it's not going up. Better to maintain than slide back into a slow rise.

Wednesday, 12 March 2014

My first 2014 BLOG

Wow, I got lazy on this blog, just like I have been lazy this week with my food choices and exercise.
Ok update on weight. Got down to 91.9 on February 23rd 2014. Stalls are lasting way longer now. I weighed this morning at 93. So have had a gain grrrr. But refuse to enter it into my weight loss chart (it's a mind game thing with me and the app I am using to record my weight. Because if I defeat that I put on over a kg then I am back into obesity and not just overweight. Plus weigh in day is Friday!!!)
Thinking I should be recording my weight monthly now not weekly since it's now at a crawl.  Another set back was when I rejoined the gym they recorded my height at 174cm. OMG I am finally shrinking, I know it happens with age but once again to change the height on my App will change my BMI. So just not winning at the moment.
Anyway, A lot has happened in my life lately. Had a big fight with my ex husbands family,then early in the new year I broke up with my partner of 1 year. That's when i broke my last stall, didn't really eat much for a week or 2. Now what's going on. well started to see someone, but it's not going crash hot at the moment. Really like him but doesn't even seem to have time to pick up a phone and text hello. So still officially single, but behaving.
Getting heaps of male attention which is a bit scary. Been going out more now I'm single and seem to get hit on 'a lot' . Sometimes I get angry about it as I think why didn't these men hit on me when I was big. But the realisation is I didn't like to look at me when I was huge, why would any man. In a few mind sets about that one.
Rejoined the YMCA and have done water aerobics and a body combat class. Even pushed myself to do 20 laps (1km) swim the other week. Plus been to the gym twice. Also done a few Core boxing classes, they are fun but exhausting. Been trying to keep my calories under 1200, but averaging about 1,500 to 1,700 a day. Yes seem to be able to fit way more in and making bad food choices.
So this is why I think I hunted down this blog to update, makes me accountable for my actions and choices.
Haven't exercised since last Friday and was feeling really guilty for it, but was feeling off colour and decided to go to the doctor's today. Have an ear and sinus infection. Explained a lot, dizzy, no balance or coordination, headaches, sleeping heaps and just feeling unwell. So took the edge off the no exercise guilt trip. Nothing can be excused for bad food choices though.
Oh had my appointment at the hospital to go on the Public waiting list for a tummy tuck. But been told its a LONGGGgggg wait. Might have to save the pennies still as the loose skin is very depressing.
Well will finish up with some updated photo's. If I don't Post I forget about it and it sits there for a couple of months. Going to try to keep it more up to date.
Same bikini top January 2012 to January 2014
Gym gear brought, ready to kick start me back into exercise. In a boxing stance lol January 2014

26th Nov 2013.

Wow, writing a second blog in the same month. Quick take my temperature. Well stall is still slowly moving. Down to 96.5. Only 4.5 kg till I am no longer obese. I would say I can taste it, but on a weight loss blog that doesn't sound appropriate lol
Been having a roller coaster of emotions lately. Something that I used to fix with food. Even though I still am trying to fix it with food, my body says "NO". I can still kinda pig out. Like today I have downed a chocolate bar and 2 small packs of cheezels, but now I am sitting here wondering if I am going to throw up......
My emotions are not really related to weight, more family, money and relationship issues. plus the fact I haven't been getting the best quality sleep lately. Been having anxiety attacks, had to catch a train the other day and nearly had a freak out.
Went to a wedding 2 weeks ago and brought myself a new dress.Size 16. Felt like a million dollars. Now I wish every formal occasion that was in the last 20 years can be reinacted so i can be a size 16 not a blob in all the photos.
My sister gave me some clothes the other day.Size 14 skirt and 12 cardigan and they both fit. Also some size 16 jeans, that where too tight on her.